Missing Someone

Jackpot,

I'm thinking about you everyday. I don't know for sure what it was I was missing. I kept trying to consider it, to say I miss your smile, or I miss the way your "bunot" hair falls down your face, or I miss the smell of cigarette smoke on you eventhough you're not smoking (which really makes me laugh) or I miss the way you hug me so tight, or the million kisses I get from you, or the way you touch my tattoo, or the way you stroke my hair, or the way we do some "worth-while activities" underneath the moonlight.

I just stare blankly infront of my computer with my right hand over the mouse carelessly moving it. I came to the point that I miss the totality of you and it comes down to a simple words, I love you.

Independence Day

I don't have to enumerate the things I do nowadays kasi simple lang and people won't understand. I hate myself for being so dependent on someone na halos nawalan na'ko ng paa't kamay. Nahihirapan ako to be honest and it hurts knowing na tinitiis na'ko ngayon and it makes me cry sometimes pagsobrang hirap na..

Wala lang, I posted it here cause my life's turning into a new phase and people around me may think na ang tanga-tanga ko and feeling ko they were turning their backs on me sa choice na ginawa ko but they will never know the great surge of pride that fills me up every time I do something unusual.

Gusto ko ng maging independent ulit..

Ang hirap, nakakaiyak ngunit ang sarap.

Supposed To Be A Live Journal Entry

I'm happy today because:

1. I woke up feeling light with a smile on my face
2. Jackpot's first text message made me smile even more
3. I ate a lousy breakfast and yet i didn't complain at all.
4. I was singing while taking a bath
5. I'm not late for 'morning-with-penguin-and-ivy' session today.
6. My officemates are harassing me with words like: "uy! girl na girl" etc. but I didn't sue them
7. I got a letter from jackpot
8. and a shiny red gummy hearts
9. I combed my hair at last!
10. My friendster bulletin was taken over by invitations that I consider spam and it doesn't irritates me at all
11. If not for the smoking detector, I should be lighting a candle for my oil burner to increase a good mood. (I'm at the office, by the way)
12. Any jokes can make me laugh.
13. I'm using vanilla body spray that irritates everyone around me and I don't even care.
14. I met jackpot downstairs
15. Yung kiss, ang cute..
16. I am now spending almost 8 hours staring blankly at my computer screen while my mind wanders to never never land
17. It was raining, yey!
18. The stickers I bought from Kuya Dante every time I feel blue were now in good use.

Oh yeah, everything's perfect because it's our 2nd monthsary

Jackpot

Nasasad naman ako. I was out awhile ago looking at the stars. I don't know how many wishes I made, what matters is that you're here with me to see them all come true. Ang daming bagay na mahirap eh but I don't want to complain. It will happen in its own time. Sana lang soon..

I miss you every second. I often wish for nights when I can just touch your face and kiss you good night. I wish for mornings when I can open my eyes and kiss you good morning. It will be nice to just cuddle up next to you and make you feel me.

You're very special to me and I want to be with you forever. You make me happy. You're the missing piece in my life. Thank you for making me complete.

I may not always say how much I treasure you, but I do. You're the greatest gift He has given me. I love you Jackpot..